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Yes I am! There is not much comming up, so I should be on more. Not too mention I switch to crappy days off during the week, so here I will be! Hope to spiff up my pro and the portfollio. My camera took a major dump, had to return it for a new on. The did not give me too much of a problem.....I marched yesterday with the fire company, it felt good for once. Usually I only put on my dress uniform for death reasons, this was different. I was actually proud to wear it like I felt a long time ago. May be I am changing with the treatments. I can only hope so, perhaps things are looking up...........

YES! Its a holiday weekend, just have to help out at the bar a little bit. Got two big parties to go to. It should be great, I can't wait. Time for a little relaxation. Holy crap! We are going into June already....where did all the time go? Things are going a little better now, I got freaking ripped up last night, gottta slow down. Wishing everybody a happy memorial day weekend!

Kinda dramatic...No? Anyhow.......I am relieved. Made it through a tough weekend. Still here obviously-I got too much to look forward too. Got alot to do today, Hope I get it all done....Miss ya all, I will be on more now that shit is accomplished!

I am on vacation, helping my bud out. It is not too bad, but I am very tiered. But hey-I't is not often I get out, so it is not so bad. Hopefully, I get time off, I will be on Sunday night..........

Ok kiddes, I was kinda harsh the other night. What can I say, I was drunk and caught off guard. I hurt initially, but the more I think about it, it was probably the right thing for her to do. Maybe if it was done face to face or over the phone at the least-it would not have been quiet so traumatic. I think now, that it will turn out better for me in the long run. It is right, should just plain move on and keep on trucking! Sometimes change is good......keeps the fire blazing so to speak. We all get too stuck in one place that we can't see what all there is around us. Holy shit! Can ya tell I'm sober? Hehehe well not for long, start of a five day va ca tion!

Here I am. So freaking busy, I don't know what 's going on. Thanks to me, I got va ca tion at the end of the month. I need a break. At least then I can work on my portfollio. Want to take alot of pics, just need the time. By the way, still drunk as usual. I foresee pills in the future....Muhahaha

Holy crap! Where is the time going? Wow, I feel like I am in a time warp or something. But anyho, I am making this entry. It will matter months down the road. My friend has taken over the bar, thank god. Now it is all about the biz! I think that it will be great, more people, better times, with any luck-me having fun.....Ahhh ya all know the drill. But I will do more which I don't mind.......So if ya'all don't see me on as much, it is cause I got too much stuff to do. I don't want to leave here, cause I like it too much.....but I will try to balance the two! By the way-everyones have babies but me! Shit! I cannot stand it, what am I? A fucking can of dog food? Yes, I am depressed. Why can't I have some happiness? I think someone is pissed at me....why else this curse? Ahh, why bother dwelling on it.....beer is cheap....